Never growing up

Dreaming

So I have been dreaming a lot lately, most of them scary or weird dreams though. I dreamt that I was somewhere in the middle east with my mom and older sister, we were like visiting for some reason. Well I ended up getting sick, I went to this hospital because my stomach was getting all big and bloated, like it filled with air. So this like young cute doctor delivered the bad news - I somehow contracted this thing were bugs somehow nested inside of my stomach and were reproducing!!! I was told that it was only temporary and that soon the bugs would leave my body similarly to the way other bodily waste does. Ewwww! So then at that moment the bugs started coming out, and falling onto the floor. There were tons of them.

I think this dream manifested itself because around that time there were these little fluttering moth-like bugs making their home in our kitchen. Yeah I was driving myself crazy trying to exterminate and catch these bugs. I kept seeing them through the corner of my eye. I saw bugs that weren't there.

Another dream I had was about my 17 month old nephew, being sick or hurt. The first dream I had like this had him being diagnosed with a genetic disease that would give him mutated physical features. It was really disgusting and scary. The second one I had was about him being a little person, cause my friend had told me that when little people are kids that they are constantly in pain because their organs are outgrowing their bodies and they are squishing inside of them. So I dreamt that he was a little person experiencing that and that he had a terrible accident were he fell and exacerbated his pain. It was really sad. I can't believe how much I worry about him. I don't want to be nervous or scared of every little thing that happens to him. I resent having to worry about him, cause its something I feel I cant help.

The last type of dream I had was the good kind, that included a long time crush of mine. Yeah it was really good because it was realistic, I mean it wasn't like one of those strictly pornographic dreams that include little or no talking. It was like the little stuff that you experience in real life like hand holding, and that first time that you get close someone and suspect that they want to get even closer. It was just us hanging out at his place talking and catching up. Then me telling him all the secrets I've kept from him, and him sharing back. Yes it is so cheesy, but I guess I'm like that, to dream such a dream.

posted by Kathy =) @ 11:24 PM