Never growing up

Transitions

I woke up about 10 minutes after 7 this morning. It's the earliest I've woken up in a long time. Today was Violet's graduation and it started at 9, but we wanted to be early and I went to go pick up Danielle. Waking up that early actually felt nice, but not that nice since I had gone to bed about an hour and a half before I woke up. Her graduation was actually pretty quick, for some reason there wasn't a lot of talking. I guess the person who was supposed to speak had to go into surgery, Im not sure but they kind of just went into reading the names.

I hope that she felt good about the ceremony and about graduation. I mean for me graduation wasn't really a celebration, more like a wake up call to get a job and be a responsible adult, and I wasn't ready for that, I'm still not. But she seemed to be sincerely happy, Im so jealous, haha. Well I guess she has a plan about what she's going to be doing for awhile. Violet is planning on going to Japan for a year to teach English, she will be going with Matt her boyfriend. For like a split second I was thinking about doing the same thing. It sounds like a great opportunity, but I don't think I'm ready for that yet. I mean I got homesick living in Irvine, which is only an hour away and ended up moving home(which by the way was a big regret). That was awhile ago though, but I think I should take smaller steps than moving to another country for a YEAR right off the bat. I am excited for Violet and Matt going to Japan, but I'm also a little sad cause I won't be able to hang out with them on a weekly basis =( I guess we are adults now, or on our way to becoming adults.

Everyone I know around my age is worried about getting a job, career, education, and just setting up their futures. Its weird to think that way cause I feel like a child in so many ways, but I guess we are all going through transitions right now. I just feel like that's all life is filled with, transitions. I mean there is all the school transitions - elementary, middle, and high school, then either college or get a job. Once you get a job you might still have to worry about keeping it, or finding a better one. People change CAREERS a couple times in their lifetimes, I mean people have to keep adjusting and evolving in this dynamic career world. And I am not one who adjusts well to change. I like everything to stay relatively the same, so I guess you can say I'm trying to live in a fantasy land.

And man don't get me started on family changes and transitions, that's a whole other story. Im just staying still for as long as possible, waiting for that first big jolt to come and change my world forever.

posted by Kathy =) @ 11:52 PM