Do I want to continue doing this?
At first the idea of tutoring was great - getting to hang out with kids and help them with their homework, and especially that I would get paid. Man do I ever have bills that need to get paid. But anyways after of few sessions with all of the kids I am tutoring, I have come to have an overwhelming feeling of frustration and sadness. A lot of these kids aren't necessarily at the places where they should be. 4 out of 5 of them are primarily Spanish speakers and struggle with English. Yeah I guess I do know some Spanish, but I don't really use it a lot because the whole point is that they get used to speaking/reading/writing in English. I know I haven't been doing this a long time at all, but already I am questioning my effectiveness - Will I be able to live up to the expectations of the tutoring company, the parents, the teachers, the students??I didn't really want to substitute teach, but now I feel like I should try it to get a better idea of being in the classroom setting, so I can expand on what I am experiencing as a tutor. I need to find out, Is this really what I want to do? Sure there are brief moments of light where I feel I have taught something to a student, but they are fleeting. The more I do this though I realize the easier it gets, its still frustrating as hell, but I really want to make a difference for these kids. I think about their futures, whether they will go to college or not and the sad truth is that all of them may not, but I guess it only takes one opportunity to turn everything around.
posted by Kathy =) @ 2:41 AM
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