Never growing up

Weirdness

Ok so my little sister has a baby, yes it is too weird. My twenty year old sister has a baby girl who is about a month and a half old. I still cant get over it, and I havent accepted it yet. Like I am waiting for her to return it, like its a loaner or something. The responsibility of it is quite scary. When she came over to visit with the baby, she was up at all hours, getting little sleep. Babies require so much work, its crazy. I dont know how she does it. I would have grabbed my receipt and hurried to the return counter already.

And like when you have a baby you arent the same anymore. You have less time for other people including yourself. And like your thinking changes. When she comes over its not the same, its like restricted. Its like a new version of herself, like that old part of herself is gone forever. I shouldn't see it as sad but i somehow do, but I guess I have always seen change negatively. But on the other hand I am excited about the idea of a new little person, and who she will become.

posted by Kathy =) @ 2:19 AM